This video totally made my day!!! Om Sri Ganeshaya Namah!

click here –>Jai Jai Ganesa!

Now, those are dance moves 😉

…so does my psyche it seems. As much as I love this time of the year, it also seems to weigh heavy on my soul. Everywhere I look there are reminders of loved ones who have passed on to the other side. I can see their sad faces in the barren trees and the rocks, in the dying flowers and reflected in the pools of cold rain water. It’s as though I can feel all the sadness of the world, of all the dearly departed souls that have been laid to rest, and especially of those souls who haven’t found that final resting place. I’ve always been sensitive to the energies around me, and this time of the year is notorious for this kind of thing. And so, I find myself in that precarious in-between place, where life and death are co-mingled, and it’s enervating to say the least. I feel listless and tired, like I could sleep for days on end, and dream the odd dreams that seem to come to me at this time of year. Not really my dreams, but those of others it would seem, some are happy, some are sad, but they’re filled with strangers that I do not know. In some ways, these dreams seem to fulfill a need, whether they are thoughts that require transmission or feelings that need to be expressed, I seem to dream them. Often I’ll wake up forlorn or pining for someone I do not know – it can at times be very disconcerting. Some of those feelings stay with me all day, or are in my thoughts off and on during the day. I try to not let them get to me, but at times it happens. Sometimes I have dreams of those I do know, departed beloved pets come to visit, deceased friends and family sometimes come to call, and those are the dreams that I like. All these dreams make me feel thankful that I’m still alive and can experience life in all its forms, in full colour, with sound, feeling and depth. So in this time, so close to death, strive to see the life that’s around you and say thank you for that, but also, connect with those in your life who have passed on and if you have anything to tell them, say it, they’re listening and probably want to talk to you too…

I had a fantastic time this past weekend! I was asked by a friend to do visuals for Naissance in Peterborough and it really gave me some good practice. Ron and Scott came along for support and I learned alot from Scott who sat beside me at times and showed me some good tips on using Resolume and just being a good VJ in general. Scott has had alot of practice and is now working full time as a VJ at a top Toronto club. Way to go Scott! Ron had some videos to show as well, but unfortunately, his computer was having hissy fits and not co-operating with what he wanted to do. He did a great job of taking over for me when I needed a break, and also many thanks for driving us all up to the party! Thanks Ron!! For their first party, this collective did an awesome job! I felt such an honour to be part of it. The psy scene in Peterborough is small but so nice – everyone is super friendly and caring – you can tell they all love each other very much and have been friends for some time. Their local chapter of Food not Bombs supplied an amazing vegan feast for everyone before the actual partying started. The food was SO good and it was so very nice to be able to share food with great people and have some awesome conversations in the meantime. Everyone worked so hard at putting on this party and it sure showed. Thanks to everyone who made this such a fantastic time. YOU ALL ROCKED MY WORLD!!! 🙂

Afterwards, we went to an afterparty where I got the opportunity to get to know some of these great people. It’s so inspiring to see young people work so well together. It sometimes reminds me of the pagananarchovegan days of my early 20’s and some of the things that we used to try to accomplish. It seems this has come full circle for me, but is SO much better than it used to be! YAY!! We headed home in the afternoon so I could go to my brother’s 40th birthday party in the evening. I think this is going to be a very busy spring/summer!

My sister in law put on a fantastic party for my brother. All of our cousins were there, some of our aunts and uncles as well as lots of Phil’s friends and co-workers. The house was full! Happy Birthday Phil!! I hope you are around for a long time yet. I love ya!! We headed back around 11:30 or so, as I was pretty darned tired (hadn’t really slept since Friday morning!) and Rick wanted to head to another party, so he dropped me off, and did dog duty while I fell into bed and dreamt of spinning kaleidoscopes, streaming starscapes, and the summer to come. Sunday was spent with a few friends with the bonus of a walk with the dogs to the mudpit that is Trinity-Bellwoods park. The spring thaw is certainly upon us, and Little Bear and Adhara had a fantastic time running around and getting super wet and muddy. We walked home on the main roads so that they could dry off some before we got back to the house. Nothing like crazy muddy dogs!! (and a good thing too!) as now I have some extra cleaning to do. 🙂

*happysigh*

Well, I’m feeling better today thankfully. 🙂

I was babysitting my niece from Saturday afternoon until Monday evening and it was fun. She has grown so much (in so many ways!), but she’s a pleasure to be with, even with the middle of the night feedings and 6 am mornings. The ear piercing screams can stop however! Wow, does she get wound up fast! I think she might make a good opera singer when she gets older (she just needs some training on that high note!). Ow! On Sunday, we went to visit my mom and brightened her day a bit with a visit from her granddaughter. This is her first and she’s absolutely gramma over her. It’s nice to see her smile and get excited over something. My mom has had some unfortunate events happen in her life and it’s left her rather sad and broken. I’m amazed that she can still smile and laugh at life sometimes. She’s such an awesome person and I love her to pieces – I just wish we were closer so that I could spend more time with her. Here are a couple of pictures of Grandma and Mackenzie (Mom LOVES being called Grandma!)

I got the awesome opportunity to babysit my niece for a few days while my sister and brother-in-law took some well earned time for themselves. At four months old, she sings (tho doesn’t really know any words), sleeps through the night, eats joyfully and then poops pantloads, she loves anything with bright colours (following in my footsteps!), and can charm any crusty old grump with that smile of hers. I had such a wonderful time with her! Can’t wait until the next time! Boy, are we gonna be friends!

Here are some pictures!

Enjoy!